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Meanwhile in my head, I'm undergoing open-heart surgery. - Anne Sexton
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Anonymous said: I do not lead a terrible life. Yet I am ungrateful and do not see a valid pont anymore. It is dull here, and what I think I want is never the right thing for me. And if it is, I never take advantage, since my largest problem is laziness with underlying self-hatred. Days are muted as if behind a layer of glass, I'm just wading through the fog, hoping to stumble upon something, anything bright enough to keep me going.

889"- I am at a stupid, vacillating period of my life. I am wating for love, the core of a woman’s life.
- Don’t wait for it. Create a world, your world. Alone. Stand alone. Create. And then the love will come to you, then it comes to you." - Anaïs Nin, from The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 1: 1931-1934
537"I so desperately aspire to create beauty in this brief, bright life, but hindsight is cruel and I am coming to regret all of the things I’ve lacked the courage to pursue. Why am I so afraid to live?" - Of Roses, Of Skin
629"I don’t want to frighten away any of my personal ghosts. I want to know them well, intimately. I love to feel in unfamiliar worlds, disorientated, uprooted. I am not like most people, fragmented into a thousand pieces. I am at one with a sea of sensations, glitter, silk, skin, eyes, mouths, desire." - Anaïs Nin, from The Diary of Anaïs NinVol1: 1931-1934
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I am waiting to live,
waiting to die.

There’s nothing to declare here,
just a waiting.

Each faces it alone.

" - Charles Bukowski, from So Now?
587"- But you must care. You must care. You must hold on to something.
- I never hold on. Why hold on? Everything you hold on to, dies." - Anaïs Nin, from Ladders To Fire
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Speak.
Say something, anything.
Just don’t stand there like a solid absence.

There are so many words that dream of
a short, unbound, life with your voice.

" - Kiki Dimoula, from The Periphrastic Stone
547"How hard it is to sleep
in the middle of life." - Audre Lorde, from The Electric Slide Boogie
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Want the change. Be inspired by the flame
where everything shines as it disappears.

Is it safer to be gray and numb?
What turns hard becomes rigid
and is easily shattered.

Pour yourself like a fountain.
Flow into the knowledge that what you are seeking
finishes often at the start, and, with ending, begins.

" - Rainer Maria Rilke, from Sonnets To Orpheus
1219"After all, you are just not the person they’re comfortable with. You are your own person. Tell me, what the hell is wrong with that? They fuck with your head and it’s true. You fuck with your head as well but that’s another story. You have every right to do so. They don’t. They are terrified of their own insufficiency and would gladly take it out on anyone around them. Why should you be concerned with that? You will now, quite predictably, sit down and overthink it. God damn it, just don’t. Be perceptive. Know what your heart is about. Mind your own business. Let them go drown in plain stupidity. But do your thing. You can handle this." - Albert Camus, from Notebooks
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- Look, a butterfly. Did you make a wish?

- You don’t wish on butterflies.

- You do so. Did you make one?

- Yes.

- It doesn’t count.

" - Louise Glück, from The Butterfly
440"I intend to confuse things,
to unite them, make them new-born
intermingle them, undress them,
until the light of the world
has the unity of the ocean,
a generous wholeness,
a fragrance alive and crackling." - Pablo Neruda, from Undress Them
793"You need to be tortured, don’t you?
You think life is rotten if somebody treats you
rotten,
it all fits, doesn’t it?
Tell me, is that it? Do you want to be treated like a
piece of shit?" - Charles Bukowski, from I’m In Love
81"I caught this notion on the way, and rapidly took the readiest, poor words to hold it fast, so that it might not again fly away. But it has died in these dry words, and hangs and flaps about in them-and now I hardly know, when I look upon it, how I could have had such happiness when I caught this bird." - Friedrich Nietzsche, from The Gay Science: A Sigh
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